EXCESSIVE BURDEN - Part 2

to women of Chernobyl destiny it is devoted

Olya was born 1955 in the village Ploskoe of the Chernigov area near to the future Pripyat. To this city, becoming for her fatal, she has moved after Nizhin's termination of cultural educational school. Here in a city Palace of culture "Energetic" she has met the collectivity of her adherents, most of which became her friends very quickly. Here she, then still young and surprisingly beautiful, she could be realized completely as the deep and many-sidedly talented person and the remarkable children's choreographer.

She has selflessly grown fond, at first sight, unattractive and heavy stone √ steatite, which completely has charmed her art imagination and presented to her a surprising opportunity for self-realization. Processing of the steatiterather laborious employment. Sometimes it is necessary to sit months near a boulder to give to it the necessary form, to polish... But this heavy work, on own Olga recognition, has raised "quality" of her life and became small replacement of many years filled with dance: "I puts a part of the soul in each stone and the stone starts to speak..."

And not casually just the female theme and a theme of motherhood were by the main motives of this Chernobyl exposition. Generally the images of mother and the child are embodied in most part of the Olga's products. As though she aspires to fill in the not filled soul emptiness, the not incurable pain of not taken place motherhood by these images embodied in a stone┘

Besides Anatoly with his soldiers have performed the works on the deactivation of the destroyed 4-th block CHAES and together with known Management ╧ 605 have worked on erection of a wall between 3-rd and 4-th blocks of the station, where he always went with a dosimeter ahead of soldiers that they received less radiation┘

 

They got the radiation a lot then √ sometimes only for one runout on the roof up to 100 BER (the biological equivalent of aroentgen) and more, of course it was on the approximate calculations┘They could not know the exact doze, because the maximal mark on a scale of the disposable dosimeter-store was 50 BER. "On dangerous sites this dosimeter "has floated away" and all!" √ they spoke then┘In result officially to all of them wrote the put doze √ 25 BER: and for those, who has died almost at once on returning home; and for those, who died for a long time and painfully, as and Anatoly himself (who, up to Chernobyl was absolutely healthy, but after returning from there some times he was practically pulled out from death by Nadezhda with daughters and physicians┘

 

Last years of his life, when he already hardly could go, when he already choked so that could sleep only a little and only by sitting, for Chernobyl days he suddenly started to act at local schools, on radio etc., to speak about ОЕПЕФХРНЛin Chernobyl as though has felt that will not have time to inform the truth to people. Anatoly has been convinced that it was necessary at once to close the emergency station, instead of to carry out on 70 % useless work and so absurdly to burn young lives (14).

 

Up to the end of own days "nash batya" (our father), as the soldiers with love named then their thirty-six years old commander, has tormented himself by the another's fault √ by the fault of those, who sent there his and his subordinates... of those, who with time has received awards and medals for the "Chernobyl heroism". While very much many true heroes of Chernobyl should been many years go "with a stretched hand", eliciting lawful privileges, should many years lay in hospitals, each time proving, that they are really sick to hear in the answer: "On you it is still possible to carry a water! "... And even after death of true heroes, their mothers and widows frequently do not manage to prove, that their illnesses were connected to works on liquidation of consequences of Chernobyl catastrophe (not seldom medical officials have stamped by the insulted word "radiophobia"(15) of really injured courageous people and often even recklessly careless, while they themselves easily made out Chernobyl pensions and privileges)┘

 

By the way, without corresponding documents there can not be a communication of diseases or of a deaths of their native people with Chernobylat thousands people, many of which even do not guess that their problems with health (also as the deaths of their relatives) are directly connected to consequences of the Chernobyl accident. For example, those inhabitants of Kiev who daily went on a work by the bus route ╧ 46, as in a long tape of the buses which carried us from Pripyat on April, 27, 1986, I have paid attention to a plenty of buses of this route, because before Chernobyl I often have reached at home of my friends living in the area "Voskresenka" of Kiev by this route. And how many a radioactivedirt the inhabitants of Pripyat, happy owners of own cars√"zhiguli" and"zaporozhec",have carried across all former USSR, because in the additional announcement about the evacuation the authority have allowed to them to be evacuated independently - to where want...

 

It is impossible to list all similar not controllable facts of pollution of territories and people populated there, which not brought in any Chernobyl registry. Also my sister, who not having sustained separation from the husband in the end of May 1986 came to the Zone for some days to visit him, was not been added in any such registry. Moreover and not alone herself, but with both daughters Irina (1975 of a birth) and Olena (1979 of a birth), almost as wives of the Decembrists┘ This thoughtless step even more has complicated their future destiny, because very fast she and both of girls have started to have more and more serious problems with health, every year more and more aggravated, √ except a set of suddenly appeared chronic illnesses, all of them had the surgical operations too, and Nadezhda had √ already several... She and now requires operation on removal of a thyroid gland, a tumor of both shares of which can appear fatal at any moment, as doctors assert┘ But she so is tired from hospitals and doctors, is especially for long years of illness of Anatoly that daughters hardly compel her to have even a short course of the vital important therapy.

 

For the sake of them and of already three grandsons she still continues to struggle for a life. Nadezhda (in translation her name is Hope) any more haven't the forces for a belief in the fine future, nevertheless she very much wants to hope, that its daughters and grandsons simply will have any future!..

 

Former pripyatchanka Irina Putshtar (1965 of a birth) looks ahead with the big optimism. She is a wife of former liquidator Sergey Putshtar (1964 of a birth), who is very sick and is the invalid of 2nd group CHAES, having already several insults... They have three children, from which younger Alexandra had already surgical operation on removal the half of thyroid gland, when she was only three years old. As Irina constantly gives all her time and all her forces to the care of all members of family, for herself she could not even get a medical card in a local polyclinic and did not address to doctors, until then while she has not felt absolutely badly. Then doctors have found in her the lymphoma, and also still the whole bouquet of Chernobyl illnesses, including the nodular craw of 3-rd degree... But, despite of all tests, which were dropped out on her destiny, Irina never lost hopes and strength of spirit. Cheerfulness and Irina's really improbable optimism helped and helps to survive not only to her personally, but also her family, friends and familiar┘

 

And still to Irina has had the luck to meet kind people, which have supported her family in during the critical moments morally and sometimes financially...

 

Her family, and still about two tens of Pripyat families will always recollect and bless with special gratitude of two remarkable Bavarian women Johanna Schuhmeir and Suzanne Henning, which personally, and also with the help of their girlfriends from the ecological organization "Mutter Gegen Atomkraft " and from the Ukrainian Diaspora of Germany of Olga Tkachenko, Irina Kozak and others during the several most complex of the postSoviet period of years from time to time have supported the heaviest families by small material aid, and also annually sent a lot of the Christmas parcels, which not only have enriched in those days the very poor Christmas table, but also in literal sense dressed all members of the families┘

 

Thank God in this cold pragmatic and imperfect world we still have many people with hot not indifferent heart (and first of all women), who literally understand the law of requital and mutual responsibility of kindness! By the way, among other, Chernobyl also has shown very brightly this ability of people to disinterested compassion and mercy.

 

I think that it would be necessary to write the separate book also about such people who could help to many victims of Chernobyl to escape from gloomy despair and the loneliness, to revive belief in the God in their souls and hope on Kindness and Understanding (16).

 

Unfortunately, the majority of doomed victims of Chernobyl till now can hope only for the concrete help of such kind people more, than on all state and international programs and funds ┘ And, certainly, on theGod!..

 

Inna Matkovskaya still hopes for the God and kind people - young mum from family of former inhabitants of Pripyat now also living in our house, daughter of whom Katya was born in the summer of 2005 with the rare all over the world a pathology √ the syndrome of Mac-Gune √ Olbrajt. Even modern hormonal preparations are capable to detain process of her fast ageing only till three years, farther √ a fatal outcome┘ Our doctors calm unhappy mother by the hope that in some countries of the world already do the surgical operations capable to help the baby, but such operation should be made during the period still effective for the present hormonal therapy. All family of Katya and even their friends and neighbors where only did not address and knocked on any doors┘ Appeared, that though and is not simply, but nevertheless it is possible to find financial sponsors for the expensive treatment abroad, but it was not found any official of the respective ministries capable to help to find such hospital for the doomed child. The time already almost do not remain, and with it the last hope on a life of the child leaves this family too┘

 

In 2006 the peak of despair of this family has coincided with the next false optimistic estimation of the consequences of Chernobyl accident by so-called experts of the IAEA... Oh, as I would like, that everyone from them √ especially their main Moscow expert (8) though for one instant has glanced in the suffering eyes of mum of this poor girl, in eyes then still alive Valentina Ryabuha, in eyes of the young pianist Olen▓ka Chemezova dying in terrible flours, and in eyes of thousands people with such tragical destiny┘ Whether really and after it their hand, not having trembled, would write so false conclusions?!. And it, despite of the shouted statistics of victims of Chernobyl √ even formal √ which repeatedly would increase, increased on personal mournful statistics of really injured people... However, whence they √ satiated and pleased with themselves, writing to the dissertation and going worldwide on various conference and symposiums; they √ safely parasitizing on Chernobyl catastrophe can know as simple victims of this disaster hard dies and hardly survives in the conditions of chronically insufficient financing of the Chernobyl laws and programs┘ In own well-being they frequently overlook, that from tragedies similar Chernobyl impossibly to pay off even with the milliards savings in the banks and to hide behind thick walls of bunkers, rich country houses and of the high State cabinets ... The long hand of an invisible Chernobyl trouble can get them and there, or their children and grandsons┘

 

However, I think, that many of similar officials, having looked in the eyes of victims, would tell that, "as people", they understand all horror of consequences of the Chernobyl accident, but asrepresentativesof the respective ministries and departments, they should tell thatthere were no essential harmful effects at the population evacuated from a zone, etc. Just as in the winter of 1988 on the conflict's commission in Moscow,where"competent eople"solved destiny of our film "Threshold"(17), one of them has told that asthe "usual person", he absolutely agrees with our conclusions and completely divides our alarm, BUT as "the representative of his ministry", he should tell ┘, and again already usual lie "has poured down from his lips"!..

 

Similar practice is peculiar to supporters of all inhuman technologies, programs and political systems. For example, in militaristic circles and among supporters of cloning of human there are those who tries to convince all world that and the first and the second are absolutely safe and even can be useful!.. Moreover, already there are such people (or more likely √"nonpeople"), who assert that the Earth easily can to sustain one Chernobyl every year!.. That is equal to the statement, what annually on the Earth it is possible to make about 500 nuclear explosionswithout what essential harmful effects?! Because, on calculations of experts, emission of radioactive substances in Chernobyl was equal to 50 million curie, that is equivalent to consequences of explosions of 500 nuclear bombs, thrown to Hiroshima in 1945┘

 

Actually, ifall this is so safe, whythe WHO and the IAEAhave accepted"Agreement" (4)on nondisclosure of the information concerning consequences of failures on nuclear objects and nuclear tests? What for the authorities of the USSR have made of the secret information on the Chernobyl accident and its consequences(4)? Why till now the main falsificators of theinformation about Chernobyl (4) - are by the main experts of the IAEA?And why the IAEA, contrary to existing experience and the protest of set of the world famous public and scientific persons and the organizations, again compels the United Nations to accept, to put it mildly, not truthful resolutions about Chernobyl?.. The Answer is simple √ they had and they have anything what they need to hide! Or maybe they, really so panicky be afraid a panic and themselves suffer by the"radiophobia"? No, they are not afraid nor a panic and nor notorious"radiophobia" ! Actually, they are afraid to lose huge profits, because the nuclear stations directly connected to manufacturing of military plutonium, it √ the back side of the manufacture of a nuclear bomb, i.e. √ "the fig leaf" for military-industrial groups and corporations which lobby development of the nuclear power all over the world. You only reflect, as far as forward the alternative power would promote already; as far as our world would be purer and finer, if all these enormous means have been directed on development of ecologically safe technologies!..

 

In the first years after Chernobyl catastrophe we together with the various ecological organizations struggled against the total lie and falseness, against corruption and an arbitrariness of the state system of double standards of the former USSR. And though I till now am convinced of necessity of indefatigable struggle against similar displays in a management of all countries and among officials of all levels, however for post-Chernobyl years I also have understood, that it is possible to change the governments or even political systems, but always and everywhere to authority there come usual, more often not decent and greedy people! Unfortunately, since times of the Stone Age the human nature has not changed almost. Only now in his hands not a stone axe and a cudgel, and more and more modernized technologies and instruments of mass destruction! Therefore, to change a situation to the best and to have time to rescue the world, first of all, it is necessary to change itself, i.e. psychology of the person. However more about it you can read in my article "Modelling of the future √ a reality"(18).

 

Maybe it is strange sounds, but in this sense Chernobyl catastrophe has also some positive moments, one of which√ awakening of consciousness and reassessment of the values by the majority of inhabitants of the former USSR, which has resulted by the disintegration of this huge country of lie and double standards. Unfortunately, still existing lie about Chernobyl till now prevents mankind to acquire all his lessons, and, first of all - necessity of spiritual regeneration of each person on the Earth, about what Al Gore (then still the Vice President of the USA) has told very well in his speech in the National Museum of Chernobyl in Kiev in summer 1998, after visiting dead Pripyat and the Chernobyl zone. And I'm sure everyone who has acquired this main Chernobyl lesson, already will allow tonobodyto muffle the bell of Chernobyl! The calls of the modern world require that today each person already since the earlier childhood has understood, that all of us √ in one sheaf √ live in very fragile world where everyone should be responsible before all. And that to not repeat fatal mistakes, we, living in the present time and thinking of the future, are obliged to remember the past┘

 

Unfortunately, with every year less and less chances remain at us to record on video or on the paper the live memory of those events. Because all more of heroes, victims and eyewitnesses of Chernobyl catastrophe "goes in the world other". Therefore, for the present not late, it would be good to issue the book of memoirs, like the solid edition about Great Famine-Genocide (19) in Soviet Ukraine, 1932-1933 (Holodomor) √ " 33-rd: Famine". The national book - a memorial ", left in 1991 in the Kiev publishing house " Radjan's'kij pis'mennyk" (Soviet writer) in which the thousands alive testimonies are collected. Already one such book will not allow apologists of communistic ideology and so-called Soviet well-being to deny the fact of this monstrous crime against whole folk┘

 

Unfortunately, official institutions all over the world, very much frequently informally engaged by development of nuclear technologies, are not interested in preservation of Chernobyl memory. And our descendants will reap fruits of such unmemoryness┘

 

Thank God, we still have hope on our children aspiring to save up memory of Chernobyl catastrophe and of favorite city of their childhood and a youth √ Pripyat. Several years ago I have been pleasantly surprised √ up to tears when for the first time has seen a site Pripyat.com (20), young organizers of which with such touching love collected everything concerning the Chernobyl theme. Even more pleasant unexpectedness for me was fact that already more two years ago my son Alexander Sirota has adjoined to them too, and now he is the editor-in-chief of the Russian version of it the Internet of the edition. Young enthusiasts of this site have so a lot of ideas, plans and projects for preservation of virtual and real Chernobyl memory, from which became main the idea of giving to city of Pripyat and a zone around of him the international status of museum of the biggest technological accident of XX century. For this purpose one year ago the Internet the project PRIPYAT.com together with together with the newspaper "Literary Ukraine" initiated the petition for rescue of city Pripyat (21). Also on this site already there is a virtual book of memory where memoirs and testimonies of eyewitnesses continue to collect. Perhaps with time, when such testimonies will be collected enough for the solid edition, sponsors for realization of such project will be found also┘

 

Folk without memory, also as the forgetful mankind, do not have future, because again and again repeating mistakes of the past, will lead itself to a fatal outcome. Therefore for the sake of the future of all planet, we has no right to forget about Chernobyl tragedy, "that our descendants could tell though any grateful words that we have abandoned for them not only Chernobyl and bad ecology but that we have abandoned for them Hope┘" (22).

 

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╘ Lyubov Sirota, also see Chernobyl Poems from "Burden" by Lyubov Sirota

 

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